With great sadness, I have to tell you that this is going be the last ever new post on Libfemblog.
Disclaimer: I don’t intend to make anybody feel negative about blogging because everyone’s experience is different.
I have had a great time blogging over the past four years but it is time to throw in the towel. I was never a ‘blogger’. I never felt part of the blogging community. I have made friends, don’t get me wrong but I just never really ‘got it’. I was late to the blogger party. I wrote my blog for two years before I even realised that blogging had blown up and it had blown up in a big way without me.
I started writing Libfemblog as a mandatory university project. I did the whole on and off blogging thing for a while where I forgot to post and didn’t feel a thing. But now I feel blogger guilt and it’s constant and draining. I started reading successful blogs and I saw this whole world of social influence and success and I got sucked in. I never wanted to go full time and I never wanted to make money but I let myself strive for an online image that means nothing.
I kept myself in the blogging game for a sense of community, I stayed here to try and have my say. I never really felt like I achieved that though. I have met some likeminded individuals, in fact, sisters for life HOWEVER I have also spent hours taking part in threads and comment pods and chats that have made me nothing short of angry. I have come across people who are selfish and ruthless and full of empty promises. I have spent countless hours reading posts about products I’ll never buy, writing comments on posts I don’t agree with (trying to bite my tongue and find something nice to say) and I have found myself feeling fed up on far too many occasions.
I felt like it was a constant strive. I felt like I always needed more and even now with my 10k+ overall following, I will never feel like I am good enough. I will never not feel exhausted of sharing and engaging and editing. I will never feel like I worked hard enough on a post or made it my best. I will never feel like my photos are the best they can be. I will never feel steady about blogging because it has become just like another social media feed to check back on and obsess over and I am not about that life.
I want to continue writing every now and again but I just don’t have the time or the energy to continue writing a blog and in all honesty it feels like quite literally everybody and their mum is a blogger these days. There isn’t room in the industry for all of us. Blogging, for me, has become a bit of a chore… it is something I am doing for the sake of it but not necessarily enjoying any more.
I think it took courage to quit something that was so much a part of my routine and something that has become such a bit part of who I am. Blogging for me has been a well needed space for creativity, a place to meet people, it has been my outlet. So here’s to; all the friends I made, the women who supported and uplifted me, the readers who were loyal, the email subscribers, the followers on Twitter and Instagram and even Bloglovin’. You all made it a fun four years but it is time to say goodbye to Libfemblog.