SAYING GOODBYE

With great sadness, I have to tell you that this is going be the last ever new post on Libfemblog.

Disclaimer: I don’t intend to make anybody feel negative about blogging because everyone’s experience is different.

I have had a great time blogging over the past four years but it is time to throw in the towel. I was never a ‘blogger’. I never felt part of the blogging community. I have made friends, don’t get me wrong but I just never really ‘got it’. I was late to the blogger party. I wrote my blog for two years before I even realised that blogging had blown up and it had blown up in a big way without me.

I started writing Libfemblog as a mandatory university project. I did the whole on and off blogging thing for a while where I forgot to post and didn’t feel a thing. But now I feel blogger guilt and it’s constant and draining. I started reading successful blogs and I saw this whole world of social influence and success and I got sucked in. I never wanted to go full time and I never wanted to make money but I let myself strive for an online image that means nothing.

I kept myself in the blogging game for a sense of community, I stayed here to try and have my say. I never really felt like I achieved that though. I have met some likeminded individuals, in fact, sisters for life HOWEVER I have also spent hours taking part in threads and comment pods and chats that have made me nothing short of angry. I have come across people who are selfish and ruthless and full of empty promises. I have spent countless hours reading posts about products I’ll never buy, writing comments on posts I don’t agree with (trying to bite my tongue and find something nice to say) and I have found myself feeling fed up on far too many occasions.

I felt like it was a constant strive. I felt like I always needed more and even now with my 10k+ overall following, I will never feel like I am good enough. I will never not feel exhausted of sharing and engaging and editing. I will never feel like I worked hard enough on a post or made it my best. I will never feel like my photos are the best they can be. I will never feel steady about blogging because it has become just like another social media feed to check back on and obsess over and I am not about that life.

I want to continue writing every now and again but I just don’t have the time or the energy to continue writing a blog and in all honesty it feels like quite literally everybody and their mum is a blogger these days. There isn’t room in the industry for all of us. Blogging, for me, has become a bit of a chore… it is something I am doing for the sake of it but not necessarily enjoying any more.

I think it took courage to quit something that was so much a part of my routine and something that has become such a bit part of who I am. Blogging for me has been a well needed space for creativity, a place to meet people, it has been my outlet. So here’s to; all the friends I made, the women who supported and uplifted me, the readers who were loyal, the email subscribers, the followers on Twitter and Instagram and even Bloglovin’. You all made it a fun four years but it is time to say goodbye to Libfemblog.

If you want to keep in touch I shall be staying on Twitter on the same account (renamed to Chewbecca91) and on Instagram on my private/personal account under the same name.

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4 Comments

  1. I can really relate to some of your feelings and frustrations here. I’ve been blogging for years too and it’s never really blown up for me. It’s all relative as I’d be over the moon with 10k followers! But I really feel what you say about it being a constant round of engagement and drive to up your numbers. I don’t want to make a living out of it either but it’s easy to get caught up in the comparison game. You are a talented writer and I really look forward to seeing what you may do occaisionally. But if it gets to the point where the fun has gone out of it then you’ve done the right thing giving yourself space to breathe. All the best x

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  2. Iโ€™m so sorry to hear that you felt this way babe, but at least you tried blogging and for a good long amount of time. Youโ€™re an awesome writer so Iโ€™m hoping that you are able to write from time to time. Your blog is lovely and although Iโ€™ve only been reading it for a very short amount of time itโ€™s been so lovely getting to know you and I hope we can stay friends. ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿ’—โœจ

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
    http://www.AlishaValerie.com | http://www.twitter.com/AlishaValerie

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  3. I am sorry to see you go and I wish you all the very best for your future.
    I began my own blog as a means of sharing my writing (mainly poetry) and the vast majority of articles on the site consist of poems. Technically speaking I am, I guess a blogger, however I think of myself, first and foremost as being a poet.
    I agree with you that blogging can be exhausting and wish you well with whatever the future brings. Best wishes, Kevin

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